So the next cycle I’m about to enter within a number of days on The Pattern is called ‘Growing Pains’
This is where I evaluate what is and isn’t working at home, at work and in my relationship. Funnily enough, this is something I started doing between Christmas and New Year and I have been seriously looking at ever since.
Yes, life get’s in the way and monumental change doesn’t happen overnight, but it’s good to make lists of what works vs what doest work.
I did this, and whilst I won’t share the details for obvious reasons, it was made very clear that work and home need to change.
These 9 months are a reality check
Wow, 9 months sure is a long time. It’s true that I am a victim of impulse and circumstance, I am where I am today because I’ve had to react. It seems it’s time to start taking back control and forging a path that I will be proud of.
The trouble is that I’m impatient by nature. I want things now, why should I have to wait? Well, this is called growing up.
For home to change, work has to change first. I’m on it, what that looks like at the end of this 9 month cycle remains to be seen. I know what I’d want in an ideal world and I’ll keep working towards that, however, it is a reward that only so few manage to achieve and so many fail miserably.
In the meantime, I’ll most likely revert to type and make impulsive decisions, choosing the first thing I see and attempting to stick with it.
I know this blog must sound like I’m moaning a lot of the time, but know it’s with the intention of resolution. I’ve realised that is is a good channel for me to stop internalising everything. Having it all written down is cathartic and allows me to clear some room upstairs for other things to fill it with.
If you could change anything in the last 10 years, what would it be?
Well that’s a loaded question.
I’ve asked this question many times to people and the general response has been centred around career. Everyone has dreams, but when you’re that young you sacrifice dreams for reality. You’re always told ‘you can’t do that’ or, ‘you’re not good enough to do that’ so then we just make do with our disappointments and get on with it. If we’re luckily enough, we make a connection with someone who can give you a really decent opportunity, if not then you’re on that 9-5 train.
I think my answer is to take life a bit more slowly, don’t be so eager to move forward, move up or move on. Enjoy what you have and take the time to appreciate what is now and what can be.
Focus on the little things and the big things take care of themselves.