The plan was to attend a job interview, for a job where the money wasn’t quite as good, but it represented a way out.
It’s new, but familiar. Something that I have been craving for a while. It’s no secret to my friends and loved ones that I do not enjoy my career.
Despite my best efforts, there has been no progression. Maybe I should follow my advice from blog #2 and break the cycle, something that has literally just occurred to me. For years I have tried and tried to break the glass ceiling by doing the same thing, but at different companies, yet the result is the same.
I can hear you saying ‘that’s all well and good, but you have an interview tomorrow’
That’s the thing – I withdrew from the process.
It has been on my mind a lot recently, am I really that desperate to move that I’d take a pay cut, longer hours and a location that’s further away?
Have I conditioned myself to like my early starts & early finishes so much that I am too scared to go to a ‘normal’ routine?
Do I have it easy where I work? Absolutely!
Do I have the respect of my peers and colleagues? Yes!
Am I challenged? No…
The trouble is, the more I think about these things, the more I like that I can go home early and have the rest of the day to myself. It’s easy, it’s comfortable and it allows me the breathing space to compartmentalise the day.
The thought of breaking that routine by attending an interview was far too daunting as it forced me to leave that cycle of comfort, I’d have to step outside of the box and quite frankly, I wasn’t up to it. I want to go home, get into bed and wish the day away.
So I cancelled it and now I sit here frustrated with the fact that I did so. Breaking the cycle is a hard, hard thing to do.
Transfer this train of thought onto food, money and exercise and you begin to see the bigger issue.
How I break through this, I don’t know, but I’ll keep trying.